Fire with IN

January 1st 2013 I was 34 years old.. and felt like nothing but a looser. I was in a dead end relationship that I new would end but I had no power to do anything about it. I was a passenger on a run a way train with no way to get off, to make it worse, I had no desire to save my safe. Then something happened... To quote one of the greatest movies of all times, and probably for the first time in my life actually believing, standing in the rain (i know how dramatic this sounds) wet, cold and miserable I looked up at the clouds and said enough of this shit.. I uttered the quote "Father, the sleeper has a woken" and for the first time I have believed it. From that moment I have set upon to transform my self into something I never was, a sharpened weapon, focused, driven and most of all determined. I started working out again, hard. I run twice a day.. pushing my self further out and faster. When I started it, I could not finish a mile, now i do 4 miles twice a day, or more if its on an elliptical. I dropped 20 pounds and more coming down every day!!! My clothes dont fit and I love it. I also signed up for two mud runs and my work out have took on a whole new edge as I prep my self, as I transform my self from that weak mother fucker into a sharpened spear of war with which I will transform my self into something I am proud off!! I ended my misery with my job.. I have been interviewing like crazy and at this rate something will land and even the fact that there is so much interested from the job market has been nothing but a bonus! The most important thing that I have realized, was last night as I found my self out of energy, my lungs on fire, my legs cramping and facing a steep hill. First instinct was to stop, give up and try again tomorrow, but I gave it more power, I pushed faster and harder.. Dont stop, you can do it, you can over take that person in front of you and finish strong!!! I realized that over the last few months I have become an extremely competitive bastard.. and the person I am now competing with is ME!!!! Fuck I love waking up every morning with a bit more pride with in me!!!