Ok so I am back!! Part 1

So it's been forever since I sat down to write one of these. Why did I stop in the first place?? Who knows, felt like I was healthy enough and I would not need it. Could I be more wrong??
It would take another failed relationship to fuck me even more to realize and learn how to deal with. Interestingly though I realized that I am a better person that I have a massive competitive edge that just simply had to be motivated properly to wake up. In this case, the lack of desire to be with girls who I thought where safe options but the hot crazy chicks.
But I think that would be for another blog.

So what has happened since the last time I wrote here.

Well I met this girl for who, like an army of other retards I fell for. I fell for her hard!! For the sake of this conversation lets call her LaraF. She told me all the right stuff, did all the right things I had no chance. Only later did I come to realize that she had the same set of lines for every other idiot!! To make things interesting, her idea of monogamy was that it doesn't exist!! She did tell me once that she loved mixing business and pleasure and boy was she not lying. At the time she was working with two older partners.. One of them 50+ year old fucker by the name of Lev Saks. He is the type of person that when you look into his eyes, those scanning beady eyes, you can tell that he is a low life piece of shit. Well despite all her lies of how much I am the only person for her, she and this lev Saks would take "business" trips and fuck each other!!! My favorite one was when they left for Albany NY together about 7 hours earlier for a 3 hour drive and came back with that freshly fucked face. Or they would go to longisland city and their meeting would always be in the cell phone dead zone... hahaha she would go out of her way to tell me that she is not to be bothered.  Ahm ya...

The sad shit, or from my point of view, funny as hell, is that the fucker never realized that he was seduced for no other reason but her needs for him to financially support their failing business. The first moment they officially closed down the shop she stopped sleeping with him... Yet the retard never even considered that.  He only thought she was lying to me and fully honest with him!! Dumb shit!!

But anyway how do I know this?? Well when you are with the person for a while you tend to figure out their patterns, and once in a while you happen to be in the right place like watching them give a very loving kiss to each other at the end of their last partner meeting in Starbucks. I think they forgot they I used to go a supplier office down there all the time!! And I love the ultra fast shutter speed and high res on my iPad!! Such nice pictures!!'

During this time we also went through two pregnancies, both of which ended in the loss of a fetus. A very gut reaching experiences. At least the second one was. No I am not cold hearted bastard, I just know with 100% certainty that I was the father second time around. First time it was 50/50 between me and lev Saks. Wander what the DNA testing place would think when they would be running two tests on the same sample cause I know her and I would have sent it in secret!!

I did threaten to show the pictures to his wife and kids.. But then realized I would be the same as them... Sides his life would be more fun knowing that there is always that chance that it can come back and bite him in his ass...


There is much more to this story but its for another post...