why the fuck did i ever stop

Wow its been a while since I wrote something here. I guess like the majority of people who sign up to blogger or what ever blogging (venting, or yapping) mode of choice we go with, we write a blog and say .... what ever, who gives a shit, everybody knows that most "bloggers" do not blog more then 5 blogs so no point listing my half ass reasons as to why I stopped.Well to say that I have went through an interesting time would be an understatement... I have learned a lot about my self, probably more then I really wanted to, fuck that, there is no probably in there... at the end, I can tell you that there was more shit on that list that I disdain about my self then there are things that I actually like..There are people who like to say "well knowing is half the battle?" seriously? how stupid are they? Knowing is no battle, knowing is .000000001 of the battle... the battle is to actually finding the courage to actually change, to actually do something, to say that enough of this shit